At Home Mom?
Last month I had surgery. For the past 4 weeks I have lived the life of a “stay-at-home mom”, and I’ve been with my eleven year old 24 hours a day. I’ve been there for his every need and every question, “Mom, if you were a two-headed-dragon, what would each head be like?”, “Mom, if you had 3 left hands and 1 right hand, what would you do with each hand?”, “Mom . . . “. OMG!
I have always envied the stay-at-home mothers in the neighborhood, and I always knew it was a lot of work, but I was not prepared for the changes that I needed to make as a mother. I LOVE MY SON! I LOVE BEING A MOM! I love being a nurturer, teacher, guide, and protector, but I NEED the hustle and bustle of the unknown that comes with my job. I need the adult camaraderie, adult conversations, and the exposure that comes from meeting interesting new people.
So, what have I been up to? I’ve organized my household, and I’VE BEEN BAKING GOURMET SHORTBREAD COOKIES! With my brain cells on “tranquil” I decided I wanted to revamp some home-made recipes and shortbread cookies have become my specialty. So, I’ve been baking like a pastry banshee (wee hours of the morning, middle of the night, etc.), and I’m still working on new variations. Shortbread cookies are all I think about these days. I think it even replaced my need to write. How funny is that? I use to wake up in the middle of the night wondering about what I needed to clear up at the office the next day. Now, I sleep through the night. I wake up rested, and I spend time thinking about new flavors for my cookies. My son helps out by pitching his ideas and I try to make it happen, lol! It’s been different for me, but it’s been fun too. I can’t help flashing back on my childhood memories of my mom cooking and baking and creating great recipes, and she’s still at it. Those are great memories.
These past 4 weeks have given me a different outlook on parenting. Me as a working mother and me as a stay-at-home mother are two different mothers, and my thoughts are on how to merge the two. I need to be more than the provider of food, shelter, tutoring, and transportation. I need to “up the ante” as they say. I need to bring home the bacon AND envision myself as a dual-headed-tri-armed-super-mom who shoots shortbread cookies at villains and conquers all evil. My son and I have interacted on a different level, and now I see that I need to lighten-up more often. I also need to create more tranquil moments that will keep me at peace (at work and at home).
Even though I don’t miss my sixty-miles-a-day journey, after all is said and done, I am so ready (so very, very ready) to go back to work. It has taken me 4 weeks to realize that I need my job as much as it needs me (if not more). Spending time with my son and baking every day has been a good experience for me, but my son needs people his own age who also wonder about 2 heads and 3 left hands. I need to shoot the breeze about the day by day activities in life and how to be a better person, but like I’ve said before, life is just one lesson after another. The trick is to learn something along the way.
Peace and blessings.
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